Saturday, November 22, 2008

Whatever You're Doing

There is a song that brings me to tears right now when I hear it on the radio. The lyrics are for me right now, in this place...(Remember to pause my playlist at the bottom of this page, if you want to see the video.)

Whatever You're Doing
Sanctus Real

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...


Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Look What I Got in the Mail Today

This is what was waiting for me in my mailbox today. I love it already. I discovered Mindy Smith after we lost our baby in January through her song One Moment More. The lyrics to that song were exactly how I was feeling. I listened to the My Holiday cd while cleaning up the house this afternoon and I really like it.

This is the cd that I am really hoping will appear very soon in my mailbox. I became quickly addicted to Sixpence None the Richer after meeting my hubby who is a huge music critic! When the band broke up, I was brokenhearted. To my great joy, they have reunited and this is their new cd and it is a holiday cd. I need this one! It is actually one that hubby will like too.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Missing Her

With the holidays around the corner, I am finding myself missing my mom even more. The holidays have always been a difficult time for me for the past many years. Moms just make holidays special...they have the touch that children need and that touch has been missing for many years as I watched Alzheimer's steal her away. I know it's silly, but oh how I wish we could have made a holiday meal together, gone Christmas shopping, shared holiday traditions. I heard this song today and my eyes just spilled over with tears that I wasn't prepared for. It meant so much more to me this time after losing Mom and having my own precious little girl. Hope you enjoy it. (Don't forget to pause my playlist at the bottom to hear the video.) I hope people see her in my eyes.

Monday, November 17, 2008

I'm an Ingrid

Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...

You Are an Ingrid!


You are an Ingrid -- "I am unique"

Ingrids have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

  • * Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

  • * Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.

  • * Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

  • * Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

  • * Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being an Ingrid

  • * my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level

  • * my ability to establish warm connections with people

  • * admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life

  • * my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor

  • * being unique and being seen as unique by others

  • * having aesthetic sensibilities

  • * being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being an Ingrid

  • * experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair

  • * feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved

  • * feeling guilty when I disappoint people

  • * feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me

  • * expecting too much from myself and life

  • * fearing being abandoned

  • * obsessing over resentments

  • * longing for what I don't have

Ingrids as Children Often

  • * have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games

  • * are very sensitive

  • * feel that they don't fit in

  • * believe they are missing something that other people have

  • * attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.

  • * become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood

  • * feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Ingrids as Parents

  • * help their children become who they really are

  • * support their children's creativity and originality

  • * are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings

  • * are sometimes overly critical or overly protective

  • * are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

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